Letter to Future Me
Dear Future Ariel,
How have you been? I hope you are doing well. I’m not doing so well right now but if you’re reading this then I know that I’ve come out the other end. The fact that you’re still standing, you’re still pressing forward, is amazing and worth celebrating. I know that you have a lot on your plate right now, but I want you to take a moment to remember how far you’ve come.
Do you remember all those sleepless nights in college, before big exams? Do you remember bundling up before heading out into the snow to study at the SCC and the library? Do you remember gorging on snacks from the Cstore? Trekking up the hill from lower to upper campus, and climbing the Rabb steps?
Do you remember taking the rickety rackety shuttle into Boston every week, then walking miles to get to Cornerstone? Do you remember all the belly laughs you had with friends, and feeling so lucky to have a community that supported you so much?
Think back to the moment in time when you felt like your dreams were impossible to achieve. That becoming a doctor, getting into medical school seemed like a dream out of your reach, a million galaxies away. When you knelt down in prayer telling God you couldn’t do it. Think back to when you felt like the MCAT was an impossible task, and you nearly gave up on defending your senior thesis. But you persevered. You trusted that God would get you where you needed to be and He did.
The road to where you are hasn’t been easy. But it has only strengthened you. With every trial you have grown stronger, wiser, smarter. And it isn’t over yet. You still have so much to learn, so much to experience in life.
You’ve been through a lot. I want you to be kind to yourself, to recognize that you’ve been hurt—both unintentionally and intentionally. You’ve been broken down and you’ve been pushed to the ground. You’ve been rejected, told you were not enough, and betrayed. But you are not a victim, not a product of others’ actions. You have a powerful God behind you who is using every ounce of hurt you’ve experienced to prepare and mold you into the woman He created you to become.
I want you to think of your life in light of eternity. How every pain you’ve experienced is nothing compared to the glory awaiting you. How the things of this world—fame, fortune, power—will all eventually fade into nothingness. The one thing that will last forever is your faith, your relationship with God. That is what you must hold on to, cling to for dear life as this world tries to tear you down.
Remember, you are not alone. Wherever you are. Whether you are in successful bliss right now, or in the pits of despair—know that you are not alone and that you are called to something greater than yourself.
Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others.